Germany made me fat



You probably landed her via Youtube! Hey y’all and thanks for stopping by. I decided (after a very long blogging break) that I would make a blogpost for this topic because it’s deserves a little more than a 14 minute rant on Youtube. I will hopefully not make it too long BUT we all know I like to rant and sometimes get carried away.

I know some of y’all watched the video and were/are thinking “WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT HAYLEY”. Just hear me out before you start throwing stones. I have been dealing with my “weight” for awhile. I have gone through so many different stages of “body love” and I feel it’s something I can talk about because I have been through it all. At this current stage in my life (after having surgery to remove my cysts and taking birth control/hormone pills) I feel my body is as “natural” as it’s ever going to be.

In the USA the fitness/booty craze is taking over. I mean we all know the song “I like big butts and I can not lie”. The ridiculous amount of plastic surgery (Brazilian butt lifts, liposuction, breast augmentation, tummy tucks, botox, etc etc) in the USA makes it very clear to see what “sexy” is in the USA. Growing up around this mentality can be very hindering for a young girl and since living in Germany and coming back home I realize how bad this mentality really is BUT that does not mean Germany is perfect and gets no criticism.

I came to Germany in 2010 to visit and I remember at the time there were no “curvy” people. I honestly could not get over how many “thin” people there were in this small country. I knew it had to do with German people being more active and the infrastructure, healthy food, and many other factors BUT STILL… THERE WERE A BUNCH OF THIN PEOPLE. I went shopping at a store (h&m *cough cough*) and decided to look for basic jeans because after arriving in Germany for the first time, I realized my bootcut jeans were not in style. After looking high and low for “skinny” “slim cut” or even “boyfriend cut” jeans in my size, I came across 1 pair of jeans (out of about 20 that I tried on) that actually fit like a glove. Now granted shopping for jeans is nowhere near easy in the USA and it’s difficult no matter where you are in the world BUT I have never experienced going into a mainstream store and not being able to find at least 4 pair of jeans that fit me “good”.

I mean coming from the USA (as I stated in the video) I was around women who were loved for their curves, loved for their big butts, their thick thighs and everything else… I had this idea that everyone must think the same way. Now granted I do not think that your body really defines 100% how people see you. I mean I have experienced knowing someone and at first seeing them thinking “ehhh not that cute” and then getting to know who they were as a person and seeing them as one of the sexiest people in the world. Of course weight is a superficial aspect BUT it is a very huge market. I mean anything that is lucrative is a big deal. And we can all be honest that aesthetically pleasing is something we all notice, even if we do not want to.

I realized that what was sexy in one location wasn’t necessarily sexy in another. I noticed in tv talk shows or magazines that the girls looked nothing like me…. They looked like toothpicks (I am sorry if you are thin. I am not saying anything bad about you I am just stating how I felt). I started noticing in the German social media community that there was always someone talking about “diet pills” “losing weight” “no carbs” “dünn sein” and that I would overhear girls talking about not eating or instead of eating something they would rather drink a coffee or smoke a cigarette. I would go out with girls and while I got a burger with fries… Someone would get a salad or talk about not being able to eat what I was eating because they didnt want to gain weight or they were too fat and they were 2 sizes smaller than me.

Europe is the fashion capital of the world (Italy/France take the cake but Europe in general is very fashionable) and what is sold as “high” fashion is not sold to the mass public of “fatter” (fatter meaning anything over a size 38/40) people. I understood to an extent that ok “this is where I am, this is how they live. I should not judge” but after continuously hearing about my weight or someone else complaining about their weight I couldn’t help but realize I was surrounded by YET ANOTHER superficial obsession of “beauty standards” but this time I was no longer “ideal”. I would never NOT eat to lose weight (I LOVE FOOD) but there were times where I would second guess not eating a cookie because I was afraid to be judged or afraid to eat carbs because someone might say the reason I am “fat” was because of what I ate. I never considered myself fat, never actually considered my eating habits bad (I might be a little generous and nice to myself… My eating habits can sometimes be shit) but since living in Germany, I sometimes feel inadequate or judged by my outer shell.

I feel like women get so much shit in society. There are so many roles that women have to fill in order to be “good” (I mean why aren’t men attacked for losing weight? Why aren’t their “men” diet pills?) and as much as I would have liked to ignore everything that was being thrown at me by German society… It’s just not possible. I was confused because a nation like Germany, that fights so hard for women’s rights and gender equality had such a dark problem in regards to the younger generation and eating disorders and body shaming. Why was it that in the USA I felt more comfortable in my own skin than I did in Germany? I mean, I am not obese and I didn’t think I was overweight… Where was the problem? Why was I experiencing self doubt or had this internal thought that I wasn’t woman enough?

I guess sometimes I have a soft spot for certain topics and I feel like this one is such an important topic because it’s not specific to a certain person… It affects everyone and a lot of people are dealing with bad body image/acceptance… Not feeling comfortable in your own skin or being judge on how your body looks are societal standards that we have to break no matter where we are. I hope that one day it will get better, I know I have matured in so many ways when it comes to body acceptance and  I hope it only goes up from here. I am sending all of you girls that are dealing with the same problem a bunch of love! If you do however want to watch the video and didn’t get here from my Youtube channel click HERE .

I love you guys so much and just know you are sexy no matter what size you are no matter what a country’s beauty standards are!!! ❤





Hey everyone,

Mike and I (mostly me), decided it would be an awesome idea to go to Neuschwanstein. I have been trying to make more “travel/interactive” videos…..which require me to actually leave the house and brave the outside world. We looked up the weather and saw it was actually going to be decent outside…So I thought to myself  it would be nice to finally start my Neuschwanstein video. Now there are so many things I have to say about Neuschwanstein and hopefully this blogpost won’t turn into a rant (please lord let it not be a rant).

I have been at least 5 times to Neuschwanstein….I live in Munich and have been living here for almost 3 years…..Why not go…It’s only an hour+ away?

It was extremely cold this time. This was seriously the coldest I have been in my life…Even with my down jacket, my beanie, my sweater, pullover and etc etc. I was still freezing my assoff…. I could seriously feel my soul turning into an even bigger ice cube than it already is (if you plan on going to Neuschwanstein from November-March/April DRESS WARM). I do have to say that the snow made it a little more magical though :p

There were too many damn people! Y’all! I am not over exaggerating but there were seriously SO MANY PEOPLE. Everywhere I turned……a selfie was being taken, people were talking too loud…People were touching things that weren’t supposed to be touched etc etc. It was just really crowded and sortuve made me feel like a sardine in a can.

Baustelle (construction). There seems to always be construction at this dang castle…If its not the bridge being closed, it’s the whole front of the castle being wrapped in plastic and metal. I mean the castle is still beautiful BUT the whole metal bars and ugly yellow signs just take away some of the beauty.

If you are in the Munich/Bayern area and you are thinking about going to Neuschwanstein….DON’T DO IT. I say this after going many different times and experiencing it during many different seasons. Neuschwanstein MAY be the “Disney” castle BUT it’s not worth the money in my opinion. The castle has too much of a “hype” around it and I seriously find it to be a tourist trap. I would recommend going to the little sister castle which is called Linderhof. SO MUCH MORE BANG FOR YOUR BUCK! Plus…The tour isn’t as crap as the one at Neuschwanstein. :p


Love always ❤



Follow up for the video I posted about being an aupair, I decided to make a blog post that is a little more organized in regards to this topic. Sorry it took so long, I have a chaotic unorganized life. I have dedicated so much of my time to being an aupair and I feel like I am a pro…Actually I fail miserably at it but I enjoy it.

Lets just jump right in.

An aupair is an exchange….You offer childcare and light household cleaning in exchange for a place to stay in some foreign country and a little money on the side. Is being an aupair glamorous? Not at all. If you are lucky…You could end up with a glamorous family and vacation with them in New York, Miami and London….Does that happen often? Nope. I was so lucky because I have been with a family that has taken me to places, I would never be able to visit or afford in my lifetime without them. Most of the time the families are “normal” MEANING not extremely rich but not really middle class or poor.

I get SOOOOOO many questions about my experience, how I have stayed so long, how much money I make ETC ETC. Now granted I can not answer every question BUT I can give a run down of every important point I feel is very necessary when thinking about becoming an aupair.

  • You live with the people you work for. You eat with the people you work for. You spend your time off around the people you work for…and the list goes on.
    • What I mean is that you could very easily GET TIRED of the people and you will most like have a little lack of privacy. Their home is your home and sharing is caring. If you are not a people person or do not enjoy spending time with people, I would not recommend being an aupair. There are days where you just want to walk around naked and that sometimes isn’t always possible.


  • You don’t get paid a lot of money. I think the going rate is 260/300$ euros/usd. Now when I first became an aupair, I really thought this was a lot of money BUT after 1 week in Munich I quickly learned I was a peasant and had to learn how to be frugal like a peasant….No seriously it’s not a lot of money…Especially if you have a weird obsession with Döner and currywurst (why am I such a fat ass?).


  • Your hours are a little mixed up. You will not have typical job hours of 9-5. I consider this a pro because I have a forever changing schedule and usually have a lot of time for myself but a lot of people see this as a con. Granted some families love having a continuous fluid schedule that never changes and if it does change they find a resolution that usually does not involve you. I find that working Monday 1 hour, Tuesday 0 hours, Wednesday 5, etc etc. and the next week a totally different schedule….quite exciting for a “monotonous” job.


  • It’s an awesome gap year. I always recommend being an aupair to people that are indecisive about going to school to start their degree or even finish their degree. Would I recommend you staying here over a year just to be an aupair and not do anything else? HECK NO. Either you stay and find a new job or you can stay with your family and start a second job or volunteer doing something.


  • Go to the immigration office with someone that speaks German or at least have basic knowledge of German. I promise with a little basic knowledge you will get a lot further.
    • Bring all documents and forms to immigration office
    • Get there early
    • Fill out everything COMPLETELY and legible (they won’t accept it if they can’t read it)
    • Bring cash, they usually do not accept card


  • It’s easy but hard at the same time. I mean you work with kids constantly and children can be very stressful and exhausting BUT you usually only work about 4-5 hours a day. I had so much time to do everything I wanted to do.


  • LEARN THE LANGUAGE. Seriously use this time to immerse yourself in the culture. You have no idea how good it looks to list: Basic – Intermediate X language knowledge.


  • Meet people. Do not lock yourself in your room all day and night. Please go out and make friends. If you are in a big city there are usually hundreds of other aupairs out there looking for friends.


  • Save your money and make extra money!
    • Babysitting
    • Side jobs
    • Teaching English- being a tutor (if you speak English)
    • Find a hobby that you can make money from





Walking in Germany

Good evening everyone!

Since living in Germany I have done 2 things….Gained weight and learned to walk. Granted I knew how to walk in the USA but it’s just not as common as in Germany. They have the whole “spaziergang” thing down to a T. I know you would think if I walk so much more nowadays, I shouldn’t be gaining weight….Have you ever heard of German bread? It’s the devil’s best friend.

This post isn’t necessarily about my weight gain, it’s about WALKING and how nice it is. I am able to experience Germany in a different way. Walking the streets of somewhere is half the fun. Anyone can drive a car, park it and arrive at the destination but I have learned that the journey is what makes everything so magical. I think I realize now one of the main reasons I fell in love with Munich (don’t get me wrong, there are millions) was due the fact that I discovered this city all by myself by foot. I have discovered treasures that I would never be able to discover if I did not WALK.

If you are in Germany and you are able to walk from point a to point b…PLEASE DO SO. Not only is it the healthier option, it is the most scenic 😀


Traveling to Munich?

Hey You guys,

Ok so most of y’all know that  I live in Munich, Germany. BEST PLACE IN THE WORLD. A lot of people that watch my videos, read my blog or follow me in general are interested in A) German culture through an American’s eyes or B) Looking for tips before coming to Germany. This wonderful blog post is for you people that are coming to Munich in the near future.

Munich is full of fancy cars, beautiful people and most importantly BEER. Not only is there a lot of it but the beer actually taste good. I 100% recommend a trip to a biergarten if you are in Munich from the months of April/May-September :D. The buzzing atmosphere will make you feel so welcome.

I have found a map of I guess the “best” biergartens in Munich that are accessible by public transportation. There are many that are not accessible by public transportation BUT I can’t give y’all all the secrets, now can I?

Biergarten Munich

Have a wonderful day & I love you guys ❤

How to Learn German FAST

Guten Tag ❤

Hey Ya’ll! Ok so most of yall know me from Youtube and have some sort of weird obsession…maybe I should call it passion…Like myself with Germany. I have soaked up the culture (a mixture of German and Bavarian ;)) like a sponge and try my best to be as Germanized as possible.

One of the easiest ways to understand a culture and adapt the quickest is to learn the language! I know, it’s a lot harder than I make it seem BUT that is the reason for this post. I have teamed up with a wonderful app (because I love educational apps that help spread language knowledge) called Flash Academy, you can CLICK HERE to have a go at it.

I personally find Flash Academy to be user friendly and engaging. I am one of those people that can not sit in a class listening to the same lecture for an hour (or as the German language courses like to do, 2.5+ hours). I get bored, I get distracted and everything is so monotone. That is why I personally like this app. It’s constantly changing.

If you would like to watch my video about the app you can CLICK HERE

Basically this app is trying to help you graduate on to the next level of language “mastery” (these are my own words such a wonderful “describer”). There are puzzles, games, exercises…All which cater to learning German and making it fun 😀 I would recommend getting an app 100% (I said this on Youtube over a year ago) and I feel that after searching through and through, Flash Academy is taking learning German to a whole other level!! ❤


I wish yall a wonderful happy Saturday and be safe!!

❤ Always Hayley


Dirndl Time

Ok, so I have neglected my blog. I know, I am horrible. I have been extremely busy…You try having 2 jobs and working an average 40-50 hours a week and run a Youtube channel and blog (If you do this…Bless you). I am so happy to finally squeeze back into my dirndl. I took a hibernation phase which also meant gaining SO MUCH WEIGHT AND HAVING TO go 2 sizes up in my dirndl BUT I enjoyed all the chocolate :p


“About uh week ago..or 2” My favorite Dirndl brand EVER Trachtenwahnsinn LINK HERE had a fashion show in Aloft Munich for their new collection. Basically bringing in the new season for Munich means Dirndl fashion shows everywhere (just kidding). 😀 I was there to add my dimples to the mix and let me tell you guys I fell in love all over again with these bad boys. These dirndls are seriously HAYLEY, they scream my name from the top of the rooftops all through Munich all the while throwing glitter and flowers at pedestrians (am I weird?).

I would just like to say that I am having so much fun in Munich and it’s living up to be everything I ever wanted ❤ Also if you want to see me being stupid on TV…. CLICK HERE

Hopefully I can add more to this story of mine..This relationship I have with Trachtenwahnsinn is so geil :p I also plan on making some videos about this so we shall see!!!


❤ Always Hayley